~Set Apart~

  The calmness that now surrounds her is surreal. She gave up on listening to the caved in walls regarding where her value comes from and how she should see herself.  Never in a million years would she have thought that she would shield out the noise and finally give her own thoughts a fair chance. Living in a world where she was constantly reminded that her value was seen within her " most precious" accessory.                                                                  Letting go for her crown made her realize that her other features had no fighting chance because of how screwed society's view on black beauty was seen. Having to hide her wide and expressive smile became exhausting because society deemed it as " too much".   Her eyes were never considered passionate enough because of how small they are an...

The idea of you calms her restless soul, even though she live in the shadows. Where she finds her comfort. The idea of you still wrestles through her mind endlessly and without any bounds. Where could the heavens and earth possibly met? Or is it too much to ask for? She may seem like just another soul wondering on this spacious planet but only the sky and stars has beared witness to the undying yearning that she has for you. The idea of you is not of perfection but of you solely being  perfect enough just for her, with all your imperfections, perfect enough to turn her cracks whole again. To bring breath again to her wheezing life. The idea of you is too beautiful to become her reality and that's a sad reality that her flesh has to bear till the end of time.       

  Her heart beats for a soul that she have not met yet Her prayers caters more for you than for herself Her eyes keep on searching for you in the crowd of millions What even made me believe that you are mine? She already found comfort in you,even though you guys have not met yet For sure she knows and believe that your arms will be her haven Your mind will become her playground As she will be joined with the beauty of your thoughts and the purity of your experiences This she knows for sure that when you finally meet, the angels will rejoice in heaven because your encounter has been planned for centuries before the both of you. Your soul will know that she is the one and yours will grant it confirmation. Yes, truly the both of you loved each other centuries ago and today again, you will live in your pure and untold love story.

  The night called out to her and she answered, she decided to let her guard down abit and just enjoy what society calls " being young". On a beautiful night, filled with stars and excitement, she accepted the invite to just be and as she went, she discovered another part of her. As the place was filled with different personalities, she was still not hesitant to just give into her anxiety. Lights, camera & action, as the dj started playing a few of her favour songs, the volume at its highest, that's when she knew, the moment is now. As she delightfully danced her heart out and moved her hips that does not lie, she started feeling strange. Even though she was dancing, being kept company by a few drinks, something felt out of the ordinary to her. She spirit being started feeling uneasy. So she asked one of the girls: How are you feeling right now, do you feel funny or is it just me? She answered:" Nah, i'm okay and that's when she knew that whatever she was...

Dear Diary  This is her being vulnerable the only way she knows how, by putting her thoughts and emotions down on paper. Words which she herself have been struggle to fully express to you correctly or even to herself, so she is taking a bold step and expressing herself to you this way. She knows that there's another soul out there who is struggling too.  Struggling to read their word each day, struggling to go down on their knees and letting you take control of it all, struggling to love themselves in the same way which you Lord love them.  Even though each day comes with a battle to face, she is always thankful that you Lord remind her daily that she must just leave it all in your hands because "dear daughter this battle is not yours to face"; that's what she hears you say.  She is seeing her world change in front of her eyes and feels like she is experiencing it all from an outside point of view, like she is watching a very unknown,scarcy part of a movie and now sh...

A book with an incomplete title, how do you think it will ends? She has seen this interesting book on the shelve in a bookstore and immediately felt an unexplainable connection towards it. She knew that the book's title was incomplete but she felt that somehow this particular book could definitely complete her,somehow it would make sense of the different types of emotions and happenings in her life.  For months, she has been reading this particular book, highlighting and memorizing her favorite parts of it as it brought comfort to her bitter parts. Then suddenly on a rainy morning,she realized that her emotions towards this book changed. She started seeing this book in a different light and can not specifically identify 'the when and how' it happened but one thing she knew for sure was that she needed to forget about her new found feelings for this book and get back to reality. This new found feelings towards this book had to disappear because they could possibly cloud her ...

You deserve a slow love, it said .As I keep on hearing this soft voice in my head. This gentle reminder puts my soul at eaze, as the thousands of emotions are now under control.  You deserve a slow love, it said. Not in terms of time, months or space but in meaning of feeling, heartbeats and kisses. You deserve a love that will look at your bare face and will see all of the flaws, marks and scars and still say "you are wonderfully and beautifully made by our creator, the creator of the heavens and earths and who has set the sky and seas apart, just so that I can fully see you for who you are. You deserve a slow heartbeat, it said. A slow heartbeat that will make you believe in love again,in such a way that your body feels at home when that being is around you. A heartbeat that sounds welcoming and warming on your most anxious days and nights, that also allows you to lie down under the stars and just smile around this soulful being. You deserve a slow love it said. Wait, that's...

  According to the internet, intimacy is defined as  a  cozy  and private or relaxed atmosphere or defined as a sexual encounter between two individuals.  Intimacy is something that we experience on a daily basis, with family and friends mostly. The world might have painted another picture of intimacy to you but it's true essence was meant to be only pure and real.  As human being, it is in our nature to crave for intimacy, in this I believe. Intimacy looks like rawness,truth,safety,corrections, amongst a few others.   Intimacy means leaving a conversation with a piece of you left with the other person,it means saying nothing and just staring into each others eyes and getting healed from unspoken  trauma. Intimacy is that person that feels like home to you but you accepting that you might not mean the same to them. Intimacy is being told that they don't want to lose you, saying that they want to make things right and try again. Romantically o...

To her favourite  wish, this blog post belongs to your heart. She is slowly fading away with her sorrows and pains, from keeping it all to herself. She asks "what is the point of feeling such beautiful emotions, if they are to be kept in a dark room, locked far away, is it for dusk to collect on them"?  Do Know that.... She finds deep and pure intimacy with you, such an intimacy that she feels that only you can cater too. You understand her intentions, her heart but unfortunately you do not seem to understand her eyes.  You gave the concept of intimacy a new meaning to her and forever she will continue living her days with it, as it seems like it is the closest that she will get to you. Intimacy, in which she realized that she can share her truth with you, show her true self to you and know that she is safe with you. Best described by the author Taylor Jenkins Reid. Oh fine gentleman, do you not understand that she is right in front of you and if only you would follow you...